Monday, April 11, 2011

Day 18: A Picture of Your Biggest Insecurity

Hmmm..well I can tell you a couple things I used to be insecure about, but I find that they don't bother me so much anymore. 

I used to hate that I have big hands and feet.  When I was in Junior High/HS I thought women were supposed to have petite little hands and feet.  I actually used to try to buy a size 9 shoe whenever possible even if they were slightly uncomfortable because a 10 was just way too big to admit to.  I don't care anymore though, I embrace my giant Schindler feet ;o)  Plus, then fewer people can ask to borrow my heels (I'm a bit protective of my shoes!).

I also really don't like that I have a bit of a hunch in my upper back.  That's one I still don't like, but I don't worry about as much anymore because it's never going away so no sense in letting it bother me.  I do remember being in High School and almost never wearing my hair in a ponytail to try covering it.  And I do remember the boy I had a monster crush on in HS telling someone he'd never date me because I have a "hunch back."  Meanest and most shallow thing I think anyone has ever said about me, but I don't waste my time on people like that anymore!  I actually kind of chuckle about it now because it is such a petty thing to judge someone on.

It is now day two of me thinking about this blog, but I woke up this morning and realized something I tend to worry about a lot.  I tend to worry that something I say or do is misinterpreted by the person(s) it was directed at.  Sometimes I worry about it for a long time and eventually push it further back in my memory.  Other times, I confront the person about it and I was usually worrying for no reason.  So, this leads me to believe I should either remind myself in this situation that I'm worrying for no reason, or confront the person about it so there is no misunderstanding.  I think I worry about this most when I feel the person will interpret it as me being rude, conceited, or insensitive.

I don't really have a picture of my insecurity, so here is my new haircut!

And here is my giant size 10 foot :o)

1 comment:

  1. I've always thought your feet were cute! And I have the same size, so while I don't BORROW your shoes, I do have a pair or two you GAVE me!!! Lucky me!

    And I LOVE YOUR NEW HAIRCUT!!! dude- SO cute! I just got my hair cut today, too!